EKZ: Intro
EKZ: Intro
I never under stood how I came to this point. After everything I had been though, I thought I had made the right choices, took the right paths, but in the end maybe they where the wrong ones, to a destination I would have had regardless.
I wish I could go back to around my high school years with the knowledge I know now. To know what the outcome of my decisions would be. Would I still ask my Ex-Wife out? Would I risk not having my beautiful children? Or would I ask the girl who I always liked, but never had the courage to date? I know that after 5 years of being married, I had a hard time getting used to the fact of not being so. The things I been doing for the last 5 years I couldn't do any longer. I could no longer kiss her, or make love to her. Apparently she spent my year of deployment in Iraq getting used to the idea of being single. While I spent it getting ready to be a better husband, and a better father.
With so many regrets, with so many 'what if' in my life. I wonder how my life would have been, if I had made the other choice, if I had not listened to my cousin's advice. If maybe I had followed my heart over my rationale.
But like I said…
If only…
If only…
If
Only
I
Had
Made
The
Other
Choice
2 comments:
When one door closes another door opens; but we so often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door, that we do not see the ones which open for us.
it's kinda hard to think about, but i try to have no regrets. like, i never regret too much because usually it affects other parts of my life. I don't regret when i was 18 and moved out, cuz then i wouldn't have Hector. yeah he's a handful, but he's my angel. and if i wasn't pregnant at 18, saul wouldn't have freaked out and came to wichita to live here, and we wouldn't have gotten married and i wouldn't have my gordito Sammy... so it's all a chain of events. It really sux that u and danielle didn't work out, but your kids are great! so i don't know..
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